Regret
Some people try to live their lives without regrets. However, I’m a terrible person and I make too many dumb decisions to have no regrets. I’m totally up for living life freely but making mistakes is all part of the process. Growing up, if we didn’t make mistakes, we’d all be exactly the same, mindless drones doing the same things every day. However, some decisions we make are wrong and, if we’re really unlucky, they can make things really shit for you. Thus, regret.
I regret a lot of things I’ve done in the past. But mostly, I regret things I haven't done. There are so many opportunities I have let up because I’ve been too afraid of what would happen. Contrary to what most might think, I’m an extremely shy person. I don’t like being in social situations and, when I am, I try to make myself as invisible as possible. That’s how I end up missing out on so many things. If someone were to ask me if I wanted something, my automatic response it to say no and blush, looking for the nearest corner to hide away in.
The only reason I can think of for me being like this is the fact that I’m the youngest child in a very loud family. Since I was little, there’s always been someone bossing me around and I’ve become so submissive that, when in the situation, I find the quietest solution that gets me in the least amount of trouble. If that means passing up the opportunity to do something, then so be it.
The thing I regret most in my life is being hesitant. Instead of telling him how I felt, I waited. That’s all fine when the other person is fun and exciting and loud and outgoing. But when he’s just like you, shy and quiet, you end up stuck in a rut where you know you like them but they haven’t showed you they feel the same. Unless you actually freaking do something, you’re stuck like that for months until finally, its too late and you’re leaving the country and it all unravels and life sucks. Not talking from experience or anything.
If I can give any sort of advice about regret, I would say you shouldn’t not do something in case you regret it. You’re more likely to regret not doing something than doing something and it all going to shit.
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